The attempt to move on..

How easy it is to put some things behind in life and move on , easy for people to say time heals , to say you must move on . Move on ? At times when life take a reverse gear and leaves you behind , when certain events completely change your perception of people and things, when little things invite lovely memories , those that you want to get rid of now... what does she do in such a state.
She said , I am in a mess.And so she was , and what was making it more painful was that she tried so desperately to bury those memories. But somehow, she mustered up enough to vividly recollect and not escape from them. Remembered every moment that had brought a smile then , every event that had made the days special. Strangely she felt calm , lighter and 'moving on' seemed very much a less dreaded task, especially when the subject at the other end was so much at ease in doing the same, in moving on. Her friends had often remarked that she was a little too emotional and willing to see more of goodness around and thus would end up getting hurt easily. She did question herself over and again , whatever happened was not because she wanted it to happen that way , she just went with the flow. Life is weird,unfair .. it let someone else take decisions so vital for her .And she still ponders , I did not want to be in this mess, I was better off even before the favorable tide came in and I simply got dragged in its flow..